Saturday, October 4, 2008

Six months

Well, Charlotte's anniversary is today. Birthday? Death day? Is there a right word for this?

It's been six months.

Feels like forever.

I've been retracing time in my mind for the last 24 hours or so....

6 months ago right now my sister and I were looking at wedding pictures and everything was looking fine. I had no idea what was going to happen that day.

6 months ago right now was when we had our last ultrasound and everything was fine. I thought I was safe, at least for a few more days.

6 months ago right now was when Dr D came in and told us about HELLP, and then we went to L&D.

She was born at 5:22, died at 7:32 p.m. I have a few more hours to go.

Tomorrow is our hospital's Walk to Remember. Fitting weekend for us.

I'm just so tired. This is all so draining.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Big hugs to you. Passing those first few milestones are hard. I'm thinking of you today.

Michelle said...

Im sending you lots of Hugs!

G$ said...

6 months is hard. I hope the walk is cleansing.

Hang in there hun, I am thinking of you today.

Sue said...

It's so hard. I'm thinking of you.

~Denise~ said...

You are in my thoughts.