1 lb 1 oz, or 480 grams. That's where little bee is now. I measured well ahead of the 21w5d that I was supposed to be, and bumblebee has surpassed his big sister by 100 grams, even with three weeks of growing left to do before he catches up time-wise.
To say I'm relieved is an understatement. There's something about it that's so sad though, as I think about how small Charlotte really was, how far she was from real viability. What was so different? Unless this love.nox really does work miracles (and maybe it does), there's nothing that different in this pregnancy. I know what happened to Charlotte wasn't my fault, but it still makes me feel guilty that all of a sudden my body has figured out how to grow a baby in the second trimester. Why it couldn't figure it out for her I'll never know.
Of course, the threat of pre-e, HELLP, abruption, all of that is still iminent. Growth could slow or stop at any time. BP is erratic at best. The past few days it's been steadily creeping up again, with bottoms over 100 occasionally. Probably an increase in meds soon. My heart is still doing that crazy irregular thing, and it's gotten a lot worse this week. It's driving me crazy. All of my doctors assure me it's benign, but it's extremely annoying.
From what I've read, 1000 grams is real viability. At the rate we're going, we'll hit that about 27-28 weeks. Six more weeks. Six more weeks. I can do it. Bee can do it.
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You can, he can! Go team!
ps: word verification for this is pregas!
that little bumblebee is doing great!
I totally understand you on the guilt thing. I feel pretty guilty now that Alison made it and Abigail didn't. I just don't understand why.
GO Bee! I just know you'll get there.
Wonderful news. Relax and get that blood pressure down.
Grow little bee, grow!
Glad the u/s was good. Hang in there, the bp was probably up with the anticipation of the u/s.
xoxo
It's so very wrong and unfair that Charlotte isn't with you right now, that she couldn't grow like the Bee is. You're right that it's not your fault, but I understand the guilt.
Hurray for Bumblebee! I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
YAY I am happy to hear that. Just hold on I know you can do it!
It's scary and uncertain but YES you can do it, both of you.
Holding out good thoughts and big grow vibes for that little bee.
xxoo
crossing everything for you, so glad little bee is buzzing around happily in there, growing fat on mama's honey! :)
Sensational news! Grow Bumblebee Grow!
Thinking of you and that little bee growing daily. 1000 grams seems huge to me now. My son was under 650 when he was born but is now a whopping 2110 (4 lbs. 10 oz.) after 11 weeks in the NICU. When I see full-term babies they look like gigantic creatures from a science fiction movie!
Keep on growing, little one!
Oh wow, that's so surreal! Isn't it strange, looking back, to see the things we didn't notice before?
I'm thrilled to hear how nice and big your little one is growing. But I also hate for you the constant comparison. I understand the feelings of guilt all too well - how confusing it must be.
Oh, also - I loved (in a "hate" kind of way) reading your post about the trees and the park. While I hate that such a place exists, I love that the babies are being honored in such a nice and public way.
Thinking of you -
So exciting!
I made a pair of Angel Wings for Charlotte - have a look at the side bar on my blog - Angel Wings Memorial Boutique.
Let me know if you would like the original, I would love to send them to you. Would need your address!
lcreeves3@hotmail.com
Love,
Lea
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