Monday, June 15, 2009

A much better place.

I feel 100X better than I did on Friday. Thank you all for your understanding and support. I seriously don't know what I would do without you. There's certainly no one IRL that I can run to with this stuff- and I really needed someone to listen, to say I wasn't crazy, to say they felt like that too. Thank you.

After mulling it over and getting used to the idea of a boy, I can honestly say now that I'm excited. Such a relief, and a wonderful feeling. We talked about names and how we'll decorate the nursery, and M is excited about toy trucks and fishing trips and building snow forts (pardon all the gender stereotyping!).

After the initial shock wore off I can actually see this being the preferable option- at least now the two babies will be more definitely separate. I won't be trying to relive Charlotte through this baby. It will be different, and wonderfully different. And I think that's good.

Oh- you'll laugh at this- in my frenzy on Friday I told M to inform his mother that if she said ANYTHING to me about "see, I told you that you couldn't have girls", that I would hit her. And I meant it. He was good to his word and said something to her when he visited them with the ultrasound report. I saw her yesterday and she said nada. Though she seems mad at me. Which I thought was funny.

The little bumblebee is doing well, and that's the most important thing. I am so madly in love with this baby. It's scary.

12 comments:

Hope's Mama said...

It is scary, isn't it? We are so invested, right from the start. And we both know exactly what we stand to lose now. Hoping with everything inside of me for happy endings - for us both.

Donna said...

That's so wonderful!! I'm glad you have warmed up to the idea of having a boy.

G$ said...

I don't think you're crazy at all. Because if you are, then so am I :)

Glad you had the husband que up the MIL. It's not necessary for her to make comments.

Sophie said...

I'm so glad you're feeling better. I think the same will happen to me too if mine is a boy. I'm looking forward to the ultrasound so that I can get it over with and adjust to whatever it is that I have.

Though, I do get what you mean about it being a girl too. Having a boy would certainly be less complicated in some ways.

Again, really glad that you're feeling better about things. And yeah kudos to hubby sorting the MIL out. Well done!

erica said...

I'm glad things are looking brighter, and I'm giggling a little bit over you MIL, too.

Hoping everything continues to go well.

niobe said...

This is so good to hear.

loribeth said...

I'm glad too. Especially that your MIL has been instructed to keep her mouth shut. ; ) lol

Bluebird said...

I am rolling my eyes at your MIL right now! I swear mine's pissed off at me. (As if she wasn't before I got HELLP, she certainly is now!) Whatev.

Ya Chun said...

little bumblebee, that's so cute!

Lea said...

Nice to hear the excitement in your words!

Congrats.... the MIL thing is priceless.

Michelle said...

Congratulations on having a boy and I am glad you are feeling better about it.

k@lakly said...

I love that you said you'd hit her. That's sweet. Mad schmad, she deserved to hear it.
Hope it made you feel better too.:)