Still pregnant. Whew.
This week has been so, so, slow. I'm not surprised. When I was pregnant with Charlotte time stayed at a stand-still, waiting for the pregnancy milestones to pass.
I'm only at 4w4d now. So, so far to go.
I went to see my family doctor yesterday. His practice is closing in a month, and he has now moved me to another doctor in his clinic who I'll start seeing right away. She's a GP but does a lot of obstetrics, and that will be nice. Of course my OBGYN will be on board too, but it will be nice having a GP who's up there in the baby department.
He sent me for the requisite bloodwork, and I got that done at our children's hospital this morning. Only children and pregnant women can go there for tests - it's a lot more calming and quicker than going to the regular clinics, so most of us take advantage of it. OF COURSE, who should be there but the 6+ month pregnant faculty member who's office is across the hall from mine. She said hi knowingly. I hope she doesn't tell people she saw me there. I am definitely not ready for the world to know about this yet.
The nurse that took my blood was sweet. She asked me all the typical questions, and I got my first "Is this your first baby". I've read so many of you dealing with that question and I wasn't sure how to handle it. I told her the truth- I figured in medical situations it would be best to always tell the truth. She was really nice about it and even asked a couple of questions, which I thought was brave of her. I must have been really pale and sick looking because she kept asking if I felt ok. I didn't feel ok. It was just too, too, strange to be back in the hospital explaining that no, this isn't my first baby, and yes, I'm always this pale and no, I don't need a glass of water.
Lots of flashbacks, there.
I don't feel pregnant. The only symptom I have is tiredness but other than that I feel like myself. I've POAS two more times to observe the darker lines and they're definite and true, but this doesn't feel real. I feel like an actress or something.
I go see my OB on Monday and I think then it will start to sink in.
I'm pregnant today. I'm pregnant today.
I hope I'm still pregnant tomorrow.
6 comments:
One minute at a time, eh?
Hang in there.
I still struggle with how to answer that dreaded question about if this is our first. My first instinct is to always say no, but sometimes I honestly just don't want to get into with a complete stranger...although I will say that most of the time I say that this baby is our second and leave it at that unless the person asks more questions.
Hugs! And YAY for still being pregnant!
Woohoo!! & I hope so too. (((hugs))) Hang in there!!
I'm hoping and hoping for you, and I'll keep doing that.
I also hope the hospital visits get easier, and that you like your new GP as much as I like my GP who does obstetrics.
One day at a time, and keep savoring those moments of when you realize you are still pregnant.
Yay you are pregnant today. I am keeping you in my thoughts. Take it one day at a time. ((HUGS))
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