In the early weeks and months after Charlotte died, there was nothing, absolutely nothing, that made me feel better. I remember mom taking me to the mall and practically begging me to choose something for her to buy me, and there was nothing I wanted. It was all just stuff, and it was irrelevant. I didn't want a new purse or shoes or even a new sofa. I just wanted my baby, and I couldn't have her.
Fast forward to today, and my lust for stuff never has really returned. Now it's even simpler things that can brighten my day.
A few in the past week:
We rearranged our living room and it looks 2x the size. I really don't know why we didn't do this earlier. I feel like I moved into a bigger house.
We got a new drawer organizer for our cutlery drawer in the kitchen. It makes me undeniably happy that my dessert and dinner forks are now separated.
I cleaned out the fridge and now there's room in there to actually see what we have.
The strawberries are ripe in our strawberry patch.
The power company installed a new streetlight just up the road and now it's not nearly so dark out there.
My MFM mentioned Charlotte and called her by name at our appointment yesterday.
Little things. Free things.
M still loves his stuff. I broke down afterwards and let him order his fancy sports car a few months ago. It should be here on Friday, and he's so very excited. Boys and their toys.
Bumblebee is kicking away. We start biophysicals 2 weeks from tomorrow. Things are going ok. I'm holding my breath.
In the meantime I think I'm going to go eat some of my strawberries.
10 comments:
Yum! Fresh strawberries!! I'm glad you and bumblebee are doing good! We did the same thing in our living room and it was like we had a whole new house.
Aw, this made me smile. I also take joy in a clean fridge and organized cutlery drawer :)
I so get what you're saying. I don't think I've bought new shoes since losing our babies - quite a deal for me :) I think, in some ways, this is a positive change, being able to find joy in the small things. So long as we're able to find some joy somewhere, you know?
The simple things are the best.
I think that is something like "Taking time to smell the roses." Slowing down is a good thing. I have way too much stuff.
So what sports car did he get?
Mmmm... strawberries!!
Enjoy your summer! : )
The little things sometimes make the biggest difference. I'm happy for you and that things are going well. It's good to hear that bumblebee is kicking away!
Hurray for simple pleasures! I'm glad you're enjoying some of them now.
Yummy! Strawberries are my favorite! I think it is the small things that are the best and make all the difference!
We just went strawberry picking on the weekend too..... nothing like fresh from the patch berries!
Glad to hear the 'little' things are making you smile. :)
I know what you mean, Heather. I had to re-learn how to love so many other things in my life. I had to rediscover so much passion - and mostly it was about the little things, like you say.
Nothing makes me happier than hearing someone, especially a doctor, call my daughter by her name.
And grow Bumblebee, grow!
little things are dependable, it is a gift to appreciate them
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