I had no intentions of fading into blog oblivion. Time came and went, and now it's been almost three months (!!!) since my last post.
Things are well. Bee is growing like a weed, is about 17 lbs now. He giggles and reaches for things, twists and turns. He's a joy, really is.
I still miss Charlotte. So, so much now. The two year anniversary is less than a month away. It falls on Easter Sunday this year, which means I have to actually face the world that day. Go to church, conduct the Hallelujah chorus, smile and focus. I'm sure it will be ok, although not what I would choose.
Two years. Really? Where did the time go? It seems like forever and nothing all at once. There aren't a lot of memories from that time. The first-year fog, then the months of bedrest and stress with the pregnancy, and now he's here. It all rolls into one really, and it's hard to believe that I've only had Adam for four and a half months. He was always present, it seems.
As he grows and starts to really develop a little personality, I find myself thinking, more and more, if Charlotte would have done this or that; would she have had the funny little head shake or if she would have been a redhead too. I'll never know.
I will post more frequently, I promise.
6 comments:
I am so glad that Bee is doing well and to hear from you. Missing Charlotte will always be there but because of you she will never be forgotten. ((HUGS))
So good to hear from you. I wonder all the time, too.
xo
I'm so glad to hear that you are still doing so well and that bee is growing like crazy.
I've missed you :) I was telling B just the other day about you. I was telling him about how you come across bloggers with different stories - no one's is exactly like yours, but you connect more with some than with others. I told him about you and your journey, and I said that you were my inspiration, and how I was hopeful that I could be the same for some HELLP survivor one day :)
Thanks for checking in.
17 lbs! Go bee go! He's not wasting any time is he? So cute.
Glad you are doing well. Two years isn't as tough as 1, but it still hurts, in a different way. Well, for me at least. Like, how the hell did I get here?
xoxo
Emerging from underneath a mountain of accumulated posts in my Google Reader to say it's good to see you posting again. I don't think anything hurts quite as badly as that first year, but that's not to say other years aren't painful too. The problem is, I never know which days are going to be the bad ones until I'm right in the middle of them. (((hugs)))
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